He thinks he’s more jealous of Dean for having memories of their dad before their mother’s death than he is of Dean having memories of their mother period. It’s hard to miss what you’ve never really had, but he had just enough memories of what his father could be to wish he’d known him as he was before everything changed.
I love love love that part.
Turned out he and Dad had stopped checking that PO box a few months before Sam sent the card, because it was too out of the way for them. But nothing was going to stop him from reading the birthday card Sam had sent him, now that he knew about it.
Sam decided not to mention the other twenty-odd letters he’d written to them that first year, before he’d given up on getting a response. Dean would see them soon enough, anyway
And this just hurts in that subtle way - how would things have been different if they'd actually got those letters?
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Date: 2007-06-11 07:22 am (UTC)He thinks he’s more jealous of Dean for having memories of their dad before their mother’s death than he is of Dean having memories of their mother period. It’s hard to miss what you’ve never really had, but he had just enough memories of what his father could be to wish he’d known him as he was before everything changed.
I love love love that part.
Turned out he and Dad had stopped checking that PO box a few months before Sam sent the card, because it was too out of the way for them. But nothing was going to stop him from reading the birthday card Sam had sent him, now that he knew about it.
Sam decided not to mention the other twenty-odd letters he’d written to them that first year, before he’d given up on getting a response. Dean would see them soon enough, anyway
And this just hurts in that subtle way - how would things have been different if they'd actually got those letters?
Beautiful work.