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[mari4212]

So apparently, the trade-off for me in terms of lj-updates is that I'm going to say little to nothing for a while, then ramble on incredibly when I do write something. I'm lj-cutting for the sake of your flists.

First things first:

My health does seem to be improving. I'm now at least able to be vertical for more than an hour at a time, I've made it in to classes (except for Shiatsu, but in my defense, we were supposed to go on a field trip to the mound and climb to the top of it, which would have ko'ed me for the rest of the day, and no one wanted that). I even made it into work yesterday and didn't wipe out after two hours.

I'm still nowhere near my normal strength/stamina, and I hate having to judge my strength and worry if I will be able to make the 5 minute walk to the library without having to sit down on a random front porch, but at least I'm not exhausted after I sit up in a chair for an hour, which is what I was doing two weeks ago. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping that I can at least keep this level up for a while.

Also, here's hoping the government really does get some form of health care bill passed. With a pre-existing condition like this, especially in its more active states, I really doubt I could afford or get insurance on my own, and I'm going to need it in a year when I move out on my own.

Second:

Please pray/think good thoughts for my brother. It's been a rough summer for him, and he was hoping that this road trip with his friends was going to be relaxing. Unfortunately, they were in an accident when they were most of the way to their destination, and even though no one was hurt, it's still rather stressful as they deal with things mostly on their own down in Florida. They're with the friend they were planning on meeting up down there, but it's still a mess of a situation.

Third:

It's utterly weird for me, but I think I've turned into the cool older female mentor figure for someone at church. She was singing a solo today during the service, and I ended up doing a lot to try and calm her down and de-stress, and then I ended up being the one she talked to and relaxed with when she was hiding out from congratulations after the service. I still consider myself one of the younger ones at church, but I'm enough older than her to register as an adult to her, and it's just a bit weird to think of myself as being someone she could go to to be a non-parent adult to talk to. Being "Mari-momma" at school, I was still just one among equals, the friend who could supply the tea and chocolate while I listened, I wasn't so much an adult. But I think to her, I am the adult. It's a bit intimidating, to think that I could be that kind of authority figure.

And of course, this is all just assuming that I'm not reading way too much into a conversation or two on the couch in the ladies' room at church.

Fourth:

I've been having really weird dreams today. Weird, first, in that I even remember having them, because I almost never remember my dreams, but also just in how vivid they were. The first one this morning involved my mother being hurt, and I was so glad she got up around the same time I did, because the dream was far too vivid and I really needed to hug her and reassure myself that she wasn't hurt. And the second one, in the afternoon, was just odd and disjointed and rather technicolor, about a folksong written about Alexander the Great (wtf 1), and how his blessing/curse after death was that he would wander forever exploring new worlds, but would never be allowed to tell anyone about anything he found (wtf 2). This folk song was accompanied by a visualization of this harlequinish doll exploring kalidescope colored rooms that never ended, which was apparently a representation of Alexander (wtf 3). My unconscious mind is apparently a freaky, freaky place to be, if that dream is anything to go by.

Comments

[handyhunter.livejournal.com]

*sends hugs and good thoughts*

[sileri.livejournal.com]

If memory serves, you ought to be ok with the insurance companies if you were already insured by someone when said condition was discovered.

[heylittleriver.livejournal.com]

Oh, Mari! I'm glad you're feeling better! *looks at date* Hope that's still holding true (if not, in fact, improving more).

Being "Mari-momma" at school, I was still just one among equals, the friend who could supply the tea and chocolate while I listened, I wasn't so much an adult.

Y'know, that's interesting to read. Because I definitely think I considered you to be the cool older female on the board although... not a huge age-gap. Might've just been college vs high school, and finishing school changed that. Bit different in RL though. *g*

But I think to her, I am the adult. It's a bit intimidating, to think that I could be that kind of authority figure.

And you'll still rock it. :) Don't think you're reading too much into it, though.