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[mari4212]

It's amazing how much better you feel when you've finally made the decision and the responsibility is out of your hands for a while.

I haven't written for most of this week, and there's a reason for that. Okay, actually a couple of related reasons. One, I've been sick, and therefore I've spent a lot of time just resting. Two, is that I've been wrestling with a decision that I didn't want to talk about in public before I'd made it. I've been so sick lately, and it hasn't been getting any better. This means that I've missed a lot of class. Enough that it would be almost impossible to make up. Today, I called my parents and told them that I wanted to go home, to withdraw from the college for a semester. It took less than three minutes for me to tell mom, and for her to start calling the school about me leaving.

I've cried so many times today from the sheer relief of the pressure. Each time I missed a class I knew I was falling further behind, and yet I wasn't able to go in. Yesterday, when I went back to the doctor only to be told that I needed a stronger antibiotic since this one is doing nothing, I reached the breaking point.

So I'm going home. We've set things in motion, I've contacted people, and maybe when I'm feeling better I can take a class or two at my local college, make up for some of the classes that I'm losing here. I don't like the fact that I have to leave, on some level it feels like defeat, but it's better to leave now before this runs me further into the ground.

Luckily, this is college. I can lose a semester, but then come back. It might take me longer to get through with my degree, but it won't kill me.

And I am now thoroughly convinced that sophomore year is evil. I had to finish my sophomore year of high school at home too.

Comments

[heylittleriver.livejournal.com]

*hugs you tight*

1. Yay! You're alive! :) I've been worrying a bit. *worrywart*

2. Wow. I'm very impressed you've decided this and am admiring you beyond belief. Your relief tells me it's a good thing, and given how sick you've been, it really is probably for the best. (And stress go bye bye! *huggles*)

And it's not defeat. You're doing what's best for you. That is not defeat.

I'm going to. Yep, I must. *HUGS and MORE HUGS* Yay relief!

[mari4212.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

1. Yes I am alive. I just didn't want to talk about the decision before it was made, and aside from that, nothing has been going on in my life. The only thing I could have posted would have been silly quizes.

2. I'm glad that the decision is made, and I know that this is better for me, so I am proud of making this choice. At the same time, I really wish it hadn't come to this.

*hugs again* I agree, yay relief. And yay Mommy, who let me get about five words into asking to come home before she started making it work to get be back home.

[heylittleriver.livejournal.com]

1. Completely understandable. But even silly quizzes are good. :P

At the same time, I really wish it hadn't come to this.

I wish it hadn't for you too. *hugs* But I have no doubt you'll make the best of it.

Hehehe. And yes, Yay Mommy!

[mari4212.livejournal.com]

My mother is seriously the best mom in the universe. I am not the only one out of my friends back home who agrees with this.

I'll have to remember a few silly quizzes then.

*hugs back*

[mamadeb.livejournal.com]

HUGS

You're doing the right thing. Now, just get better.

[mari4212.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

Thank you.

[patagonian.livejournal.com]

I know how much a decision like that can make you feel better. I had to cut down to half-time both semesters of my junior year in college - and I don't regret it, that's for sure. You need to get better!

Take care of yourself!

[mari4212.livejournal.com]

*hugs* It does help to hear that other people have made similar decisions.

I'm trying, hopefully the new perscription should help.

[ljmckay.livejournal.com]

First of all, I'm glad you're all right! I understand you not wanting to post until anything was decided, but it's good to hear from you. :)

Wow, that's a big decision. I can't imagine the pressure that's off you now, and I wonder if maybe you'll get better faster now that that burden is lifted. Hope so. Good for you for having the courage to take that step. And it's not defeat; your health is far more important, especially since you can make up a semester later.

*hugs and prayers*

[mari4212.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Now that I've got that off my mind, I will be posting more often. I've got a discussion about awareness of story percolating in my brain, that'll probably be written soon.

I feel a lot better from the relief of stress, so I should get better. I'm also going on a stronger antibiotic as soon as I arrange transport to a pharmacy.

[ishie]

*hugs*

It is an incredibly difficult decision to make, but it sounds like you're doing the right thing. Nothing should be more important than your health -- and college is always going to be there when you're ready to go back.

Trust me. I know from deferring education. :) Not to mention, you've got a few good schools around here to choose from when you're ready to take a few classes again. WSU's got quite a few Distance Learning courses available now and I'm sure UD has even more!

[mari4212.livejournal.com]

Mom and I have already been discussing WSU as an option, so that I can make up a few classes.

I know that I've made the right decision, but it might take me a while to accept all of it.

[silverbirch29.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm sure that must have been an extremely tough decision, but it sounds like you're doing the right thing. Your health is the most important thing - and as you say, you can catch up with the college work when you are ready to. I hope you start feeling better soon and that you havea good rest!

[mari4212.livejournal.com]

It was tough, but I'm so glad that it's made and over with.

*hugs back*

[your-downfall.livejournal.com]

*hugs you*

I had a very similar experience with high school last year-- it means I'm graduating a year later than I should (I should be graduating this year). I figured my sanity was more important.

I hope this works for you, and I'm glad the pressure is gone.